Learning to forgive myself for all my mistakes, and all my shortcomings. Being at peace with who i am, and who i am not. Got reacquainted with some close friends today, and took a chance to meet two new Swiss guys that speak English what a friggen relief let me tell ya. I was full of anxiety all day, and just to prove to the scared little boy inside that I could do it, I went over there and had a chat. Now, we're heading over for pizza and beer.
The world is short two less people here in the last week. Ivy, the concierge from my old Spectrum building lost her fight with cancer this morning. She wasn't expected to make it to 2011, but now she is free from her pain and suffering. Gloria, a family member, passed away last week suddenly and will be sadly missed by many.
The birds are chirping here today, and a light breeze after some intermittent rains. It's moments like this when I grieve all the days lost to anxiety, and when I vow to never let it control me another moment. And as for that fear of rejection thing over my writing to hell with it as my cuz paula says is that the worst that can happen to you? No, and just get over it and find someone who does like my writing. Failing that, I can always eat small, neglected children. Look out kids!!!!
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