This blog's for ME

Almost 25 years old, asking my parents if I can sleep in their bed with them. I had thought I was going to be the 25th Prime Minister of Canada. Things had changed. 10 years later, I was still a scared little boy. The time had come to slap myself awake. One Saturday morning, November 19th, 2009, I declared to the world I would be riding my 10 year-old motorcycle from Vancouver, BC Canada to Rio de Janeiro, Brasil, and back.

The official departure was August 28th, 2010. A group of well-wishers saw me off at 8:03 am.

I arrived in Rio de Janeiro around 6 pm March 1st, 2011.



My return to Vancouver came on July 5th, 2011 about 2:00 pm.

Drug & alcohol abuse, ADD, social anxiety, health, chronic pain, night terrors.

So many concerns. But I am far more interested in this question: Do I have the capacity to make this trip despite all my shortcomings?

My mission: To inspire myself to face my fears, enlighten myself on how all living things can peacefully co-exist, enjoy every moment, and see the world as plentiful and generous.

Go ahead. Call me crazy. Call me anything you like.

I'm out to save my world.



I LOVE YOU ALL



Questions, comments, concerns, threats? Contact me: jason.chapman99@gmail.com


So many fears

They hit like a freight train, and come out of nowhere. Do you have to sit back and take it? No, and neither do you have to be hyper-vigilant to make sure it doesn't come back. Life is meant to be lived, and being on the front lines allows for that. In football games, you can't stop to navel-gaze otherwise your opponent will strip the ball from you and take it to the end-zone. That's what fear does.
I know I am in a pattern right now, and I know there is the signs of fear in my body. I must forget my past, and quickly move through it. Anyone who wants to keep their life going has got to learn how to jump through these times as painlessly and effortlessly as possible.
For starters, know that your brain is doing this, and it's not real. Just like neurons firing, and chemicals passing through, there is no meaning or reason for what is going on. Just that it is going on. You can spend years trying to figure out why you fear, and try and spend thousands of dollars, many hours talking, just to ensure you never feel it again. But remember this brain is a primitive one, one that hasn't changed in thousands of years. If you don't believe in some higher power, family member, friend, or partner being able to take all your pain away, you must learn it the hard way. The great news though, is once you have this, you won't need anything or anyone to get you through it, you will have gotten out of it all by yourself.
I just realized my pattern for negativity, fear and avoidance. Now, I don't have time to mess around with these things I've got to get on a bike in 3 months and live. How am I going to do that? Work, moving, and persistent discipline. That's it!

2 comments:

  1. What if instead of conquering, moving through and dealing with your fears, anxiety and depression you honored them instead. What if you found a way to love them as a part of who you are and see that they are serving you? To push away ones fear is to push away ones love Jason. Acceptance and allowance, while not offering perceived control, do promote freedom and ease. Somethings to consider.......

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    1. I just now read this, i mean really read this. Thank you!

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