A Journey Before It's Begun

I never knew the journey would have begun so soon. Admittedly rarely over-the-moon excited about embarking on my trip, I have often sunk into great fear about what I'm throwing away: all the work I've done to build up a home, just to start again. But what I am striving for, is to create stability that is separate from the outside world of materials, that stability hopelessly craved for by hoarders. No, I strive to create an inner stability and calm regardless of what is going on in my life. I've been having stomach problems for almost 3 years, and I just put up with it. I had some lasagna for breakfast leftover from last night, and left it at that for the rest of the day, drinking water. It was shocking to see how many hunger pains, and mood changes I went through; it was clear I'm an emotional eater, and use all kinds of sweets and treats to change where I'm at. In my mind, the best thing for a positive change in life is to 'throw your hat over the fence'. This idiom of the English language refers to setting a date in the future for a grand plan, then work your way towards it. It effectively slides through all the slings and arrows of the human's mentality to avoid, and procrastinate doing the things they've always wanted to. It's not easy, but it's simple.