Letter from Mom

Hi J. Thanks for changing your blog picture. What is it?

We are having a wintery kind of day today. Snowy and a cold breeze. The kind of day to stay inside. Sounds like you are not having a good day again. Maybe it's time to move on.

You seem to get down whenever you stay in one place toooo long. Not enough to keep you busy??

or too much time to think?? No Vitamin C!!!

Not sure why you need to stay til the Carnival??? Is it that BIG a deal.? I'm thinking your health situation it may be a good idea to come home a bit sooner. You are getting TOOOOOO many "black hole sessions toooo close together>

Actually we have been thinking..............."oh ya I know another Mom Talk"

Wrong this is a Dad thing. We are getting itchy feet to go somewhere he thought............

We'd fly down and meet you somewhere in the States. ie..Disney World, Dallas, Disneyland or a place

you may think of.

We'd pay to have you bike shipped home and you could fly and meet us when you are ready.

Jodi is getting her passport so sounds like she may be interested. So far this is only in the dream stage but thought we'd thro' it out to you.

What do ya think about that..???????

Get your thinkin' cap on so we can watch for seat sales.

Have your Swiss friends left now?

Guess that's all for now. Skype us if you feel like talking. It helps you know.

We will be home tonight.

Luv from sounds like you need an extra hug.

lol ok tell me when you're home again. all questions will be answered......now!

no i didn't hear it's under water. better reason to wait here.

ok first, it's the sign of the gymnasium so surprised it's only 17 years old but settling in.

not good days are important, because they always come before good days.

too much time to think. yes. but no matter where i live, i'm going to have to go through this. this is the main reason i did this, was to be away from all my safety nets, so i can finally come to terms with my anxiety and fears and thoughts. it's working. do you remember how bad i was a week off of work in stettler? i don't want to have to always work so hard to drown my thoughts. i want to be ok completely relaxed.

The reason there's more black holes, is because i'm staying in one place. I can't run away from them.

and yes, carnaval is a big deal, because it's what i said i would do. my current health situation is one where i have dealt with anxiety for 14 years, and haven't taken the time to adequately go through it. it is a brain habit, and one that takes a great deal of work, and personal discipline to successfully do it. it takes time. I request that you support me in this venture, and read this email when you start to worry.

i'm not so sure about this itchy feet thing. You two have had dr. scholl's spray for 70 years, so i'd be surprised if you've really got itchy feet.

i've got to find out about my swiss friends, haven't heard from them in awhile.... i'll send an email.

We'll talk later,

love j