So many fears

They hit like a freight train, and come out of nowhere. Do you have to sit back and take it? No, and neither do you have to be hyper-vigilant to make sure it doesn't come back. Life is meant to be lived, and being on the front lines allows for that. In football games, you can't stop to navel-gaze otherwise your opponent will strip the ball from you and take it to the end-zone. That's what fear does.
I know I am in a pattern right now, and I know there is the signs of fear in my body. I must forget my past, and quickly move through it. Anyone who wants to keep their life going has got to learn how to jump through these times as painlessly and effortlessly as possible.
For starters, know that your brain is doing this, and it's not real. Just like neurons firing, and chemicals passing through, there is no meaning or reason for what is going on. Just that it is going on. You can spend years trying to figure out why you fear, and try and spend thousands of dollars, many hours talking, just to ensure you never feel it again. But remember this brain is a primitive one, one that hasn't changed in thousands of years. If you don't believe in some higher power, family member, friend, or partner being able to take all your pain away, you must learn it the hard way. The great news though, is once you have this, you won't need anything or anyone to get you through it, you will have gotten out of it all by yourself.
I just realized my pattern for negativity, fear and avoidance. Now, I don't have time to mess around with these things I've got to get on a bike in 3 months and live. How am I going to do that? Work, moving, and persistent discipline. That's it!