An Idle Mind

Quote of the Day: It is impossible to enjoy idling thoroughly unless one has plenty of work to do. There is no fun in doing nothing when you have nothing to do. Wasting time is merely an occupation then, and a most exhausting one. Idleness, like kisses, to be sweet must be stolen.

--Jerome K. Jerome

I understand it all now. The world, or the consumer world needs to have an instruction manual for it. The average North American eats 150 lbs of sugar a year. This is preposterous to anyone who wants to live a healthy, happy life. So many drugs are available, without much in the way of counselling after someone's trip. Lights, music, traffic, all-night parties it's just a constant rattle of stuff to be done. It's why I had to quit at least one job - it was just too noisy to concentrate.

Additionally, I've learned today that some human minds, like mine, can go to some pretty scary places when alone. But I've come back to tell the tale, and I know exactly how to go in, and come out whenever I want. This is exciting news. I feel I understand alcoholics, drug addicts, schizophrenia, bipolar, depression, anxiety, suicides. We really have a big big brain that has a little trap door in it where only the most curious and internally preoccupied go. Opening that little trap door often has a lock on the inside, and once fallen through, can be almost impossible to get back out. But there is a way, and for those who really want to live a decent life, it can be done.

I want to live a decent life.